Holy moly, what a ride! Need I mention a ride that I never EVER want a ticket for anytime in the near future...or ever for that matter. Tears ran down my face during my last radiation treatment; they asked why I was crying and I WANTED to say "because I never have to see you again", but I simply said "....because I did it." Radiation is BY FAR the hardest thing I've ever gone through; though breaking up with Aaron Grahmm in 5th grade was pretty rough! I have to see my friends at chemotherapy once a week, just to get my blood counts. Now I get a 4-6 week break in which I plan to eat my entire weight in Thanksgiving food! :)
I have a lot to be thankful for this year. I am pretty sure that I would not be alive if it weren't for my amazing support group-Mom, Jonathan, Dad, Grandma, my amazing boyfriend, Dawn, Brenda, Patti, Kristyn, Danielle, Lauren, Aunt Alisa and family, and EVERYONE THAT HAS DONATED to "Love for Kirsten". Your help is appreciated more than you know!
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
7 more treatments!
You read the title right!!! 7 weekdays left!!! I am so stinking excited...I would be more excited if I were able to keep anything at all in my stomach! Woohoo!You all missed the party at my house this weekend! It was BYOElectrolytes and you had to supply your own puke bucket. Really good time :)
Sometimes it honestly feels like my body has declared war on my soul...it's a constant struggle. Maybe that's what cancer really is...The location (brain,breast,pancreas,etc.) of the cancer declaring a sort of battle on the heart and soul. Truth is that one's heart and soul always ALWAYS win this battle...it's just a matter of when and where. Heaven is a place too, ya know!
Out frame!
I am not dying! The brilliant neurological-Oncology genius At UCLA has given me no inclination that I will be leaving this planet anytime soon! YAY! 7 more weekdays of this chemotherapy-radiation malarkey, then 4-6 weeks off for good behavior :), then the ever popular MRI!!
Thank you so much for reading!
Peace,Love, and Raffle Tickets for an iPad 2--contact me for more info :)
Kirsten
Sometimes it honestly feels like my body has declared war on my soul...it's a constant struggle. Maybe that's what cancer really is...The location (brain,breast,pancreas,etc.) of the cancer declaring a sort of battle on the heart and soul. Truth is that one's heart and soul always ALWAYS win this battle...it's just a matter of when and where. Heaven is a place too, ya know!
Out frame!
I am not dying! The brilliant neurological-Oncology genius At UCLA has given me no inclination that I will be leaving this planet anytime soon! YAY! 7 more weekdays of this chemotherapy-radiation malarkey, then 4-6 weeks off for good behavior :), then the ever popular MRI!!
Thank you so much for reading!
Peace,Love, and Raffle Tickets for an iPad 2--contact me for more info :)
Kirsten
Monday, October 3, 2011
Thank you, Pedialyte!!!
Hi Friends!
Great News! I am FINALLY done with cranio-spinal radiation. I am beyond enthused because the x-ray beams go through my spine and hit my stomach making it IMPOSSIBLE to hold anything down. Also, it burnt my throat making it impossible to swallow anything (even my own saliva!) But that is over, done.......ON TO THE NEXT!
I shaved my head because my hair was coming out in chunks, and I figured that I'm a tough chick :-/ FALSE!!! The first few nights, I wept like a small child. But the great news is that I still have my eyebrows, eye lashes, leg hair (...yay...) I made it ALL the way through cranio-spinal radiation and even told my radiation therapist that it looked like I made it out with all my hair!!! Jinx...started falling out that night. Ughh....sometimes it feels like I just cannot win.
I have had three neupogen shots. For you cancer newbies, a neupogen shot is a shot to kick my bone marrow into high gear to start producing more white blood cells. Last week, my counts got extremely low and there was even talks of a blood transfusion. I think that scared my body....my counts the next day were pretty high.
Just over halfway through! Some mornings, I just want to skip the day all together because Nausea isn't my name and puking my brains out is NOT my game!!! Then I have mornings that I thank God that I'm alive. I need to start having more of those mornings....
Peace, Love, and Lots of Fluids!
XO
Kirsten
PS- If you want to help me with my medical expenses, you can make donations at http://goo.gl/E8VHQ
Checks can be made out to "Love for Kirsten". Call or email for address. <3
Great News! I am FINALLY done with cranio-spinal radiation. I am beyond enthused because the x-ray beams go through my spine and hit my stomach making it IMPOSSIBLE to hold anything down. Also, it burnt my throat making it impossible to swallow anything (even my own saliva!) But that is over, done.......ON TO THE NEXT!
I shaved my head because my hair was coming out in chunks, and I figured that I'm a tough chick :-/ FALSE!!! The first few nights, I wept like a small child. But the great news is that I still have my eyebrows, eye lashes, leg hair (...yay...) I made it ALL the way through cranio-spinal radiation and even told my radiation therapist that it looked like I made it out with all my hair!!! Jinx...started falling out that night. Ughh....sometimes it feels like I just cannot win.
I have had three neupogen shots. For you cancer newbies, a neupogen shot is a shot to kick my bone marrow into high gear to start producing more white blood cells. Last week, my counts got extremely low and there was even talks of a blood transfusion. I think that scared my body....my counts the next day were pretty high.
Just over halfway through! Some mornings, I just want to skip the day all together because Nausea isn't my name and puking my brains out is NOT my game!!! Then I have mornings that I thank God that I'm alive. I need to start having more of those mornings....
Peace, Love, and Lots of Fluids!
XO
Kirsten
PS- If you want to help me with my medical expenses, you can make donations at http://goo.gl/E8VHQ
Checks can be made out to "Love for Kirsten". Call or email for address. <3
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